December 5th, 2005

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As an artist,I draw everything,things that happened in the past,present,future,war,love,life,death,everything.
Using art to intrepret ones stories,I draw many arts just like that.Songs always makes me draws,love songs,like Maroon 5's She Will Be Loved, everytime I listens,I think of him, I even translate the version into a homosexual version. He Will Be Loved.

I need him,sigh,distance,my enemy,his enemy,every far away couple's enemy, having no physical touch or talk makes me sad,the longer the time flows,our relationship drifts....

Calling him,emailling him,mailing him,all those may help,but how are we going to caress each other? Damn,to think having a mate who is living at another state is tough,try a continent! But,it would prove helpful,it teaches me to be patient with my love,no,I am the impatient one, I need to hold his hands! To tell him how handsome he is,to hear him giggle at my flirt,fantasies,mere fantasies,unless he lives in the same neighbourhood as you,that would be different. My mind,it keeps telling me to be a rebel,buy a flight ticket and flew to the Netherlands and go to his house and give him my sweet nectar. Bah,my mind is full of dreams, which,I want it to come true. No matter how much I said,I love you on the internet,it feels that my voice echoes back,making me feel loveless, I need to hear his voice,his sweet voice,in reality.

"Not a mere wounds will gonna stop me"-Ghost Of You,MCR.

Listenening to it over and over,oh God how I wish to be invincible. But they say, your devotion to your loved ones are always best shown through art and literature. True,I even created songs about my boyfriend,arts about him,stories about him and I together. He did the same too,but we never dare show it to the public,it would attract unwanted attention,especially to those who oppose our love. My parents raised me up and hope me to be a useful being to society and mankind,I had never told him about my sexual orientation,they suspect it too,why?Because I'm being too unpredictable to them to think likewise. Using it as my weapon,my shield,to shroud them,to keep them at bay. Many gays I talked to, they always give you the same advice,don't tell your parents,they will never understand it, true to it's core, telling them is like you signing your death warrant.

In the world,I doubt the percentage of homosexuality ,bisexuality and transsexuality in this world,but deep down,I know it's more than it's suppose to be. We are God's creation, loving the same sex may sound offensive to many,some would to give pity and dissapointment to us, we do not need them for we are happy for who we are and we do not need to be pitied like we are victims of wars, save the pity for the people who died under the hands of cultist and save your dissapointment for the people who cause the downfall of mankind and peace.

Friends,people,public,tell others,tell them, we are not a threat to mankind,the threat to mankind are evil,rapist and sex slave traders,death to them,they soiled the true meaning of same sex love and use it for their own personal greed and pleasure,such insolent acts are beyond devilish deeds. How do you support us if you are not indeed helping us?Build a different city for us to live in?Homosexuality,bisexuality and transsexuality is not a lifestyle people can choose,it chooses us because we are born to,I knew I was gay when at the age of 13 when i had a crush on my best friend. But to prove I was not gay,I go to the extreme, I had sex,with a girl,but,that didn't work,pleasures I may recieve but where is the actual love?Lost.

To me,from my homosexual point of view, To make love with a woman feels like a whore's love,not actual love,to just kiss a man,it feels like we are bond,we are entwined to be together forever. I am that,I am born to be a gay,even hearing the word "gay", I shrug and my mind says,it's true. I accept it,It's no liability, I am now a gay, people are not gay because they are perverts and just look for sex,it's they are hoping for a loving relationship with a consenting adult.They need love,not being attacked and killed because they seem offensive to many.

How do we fight for our rights?To let us tie our knots together?To live in peace and harmony and avoid conflicts?We are humans,we are not to be divided because of sexual orientation. We had those before,religion and race.The Aryan master race and Christianity.No more labellings.Live in peace.

We are who we are and to change us means to break us,to kill us.
  • Current Music
    Ghost Of You -MCR

Tears and Rain

Tears and Rain

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Art Description
Inspired by James Blunt's Tears and Rain.

I love that song,thanks to GingerTommy for the song. But ,sigh,not very sure this song is associated with the pic up there.

Here's the lyric.

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;

Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain...

I love that song.:)

Dunno who's Dorian Gray?Go find Gingertom and ask him.

Tears and rain....
What would be more fearful than war?A german soldier,thinking of his loved ones,far away from them,but sometimes,it's a good thing.Forget misery and pain at home.Find comfort in pain,find it.

That's how I intrepet the song,I know I'm wrong.

Critics please?:D

Art Medium
Tablet and PS CS1.

Song ©James Blunt

  • Current Music
    Tears and Rain-James Blunt